Five More Paychecks

Things are getting a little scary now. I just calculated that I have another five more paychecks coming before the end of our contract. That equates to five more paychecks and possible unemployment.  I’ve been through too much to get myself back on track and then to have the rug pulled from under me again. I am now going to apply elsewhere, even though the commute would be about two hours or so one way. Four hours of driving will kill me but at least my bills will be paid. Wish me luck and/or pray for me…..

Diagnosis – Pityriasis Rosea

Yesterday I went to the doctor because the medicine I had been using for my supposed “ringworm” was not clearing it up. Not to mention, since then I have had areas all over my body erupt in small rashes. This simply was not cool  because I have an intense fear of scars. Any minor trauma on my skin results in one: bug bite, scratch, bumping into something, etc.  so I wanted to stop the spreading as quickly as possible. After I’m in his office, I decide to pull down the band of my pants in the back to reveal the large mark in question. I decided to not lotion up this day so he could see the flaky, oval  blemish partly on the upper section of my behind. He looked at it and said ok and wanted to see the other marks. I showed him the rash of small, itchy bumps that popped up on my wrist, sides, inner leg, and back. He immediately said, “I know what it is and it isn’t ringworm. Let me go get a medical picture book.”  I was excited and then scared because it could be something so horrific he wanted to show me instead of actually verbalizing the diagnosis.

He came back in with his nurse and stated, “I want to show her so she can learn.”  Holy crap! I must be a leper or something.  I at least must have some shit they only have heard of in medical books and have never personally laid eyes on. I patiently waited for the diagnosis.  The doctor said, “you have Pityriasis Rosea.”  “What the hell is that?”, I exclaimed, “is it contagious?” He smartly asked me, “Do you want it to be?” Hell no! He explained to me that he had misdiagnosed a patient a long time ago with ringworm after just seeing the big patch I had, which he called a herald patch. They call it a herald patch because it is alerting you that something is coming. He gave the example of when a herald would alert everyone that the queen or princess was coming. Anyway, his patient hadn’t broken out in a rash yet so he diagnosed that person with a fungus (which is what my other doctor did). When the person broke out all over in a rash, that was when he was able to diagnose Pityriasis Rosea.

I explained to him how new ones keep coming up and he said it would do that. There is no cure because it is kind of viral in nature so it would have to run its course – normally 6-12 weeks. I asked could it come back and he said most people only get it once and no one really knows how you get it. Great! Only I get some crap that is unknown in origin. He gave me a prescription for Hydroxyzine because it can be used as an antihistamine. He then told me a trick: he crushed up a Zyrtec pill and mixed it with lotion and told me to put it on my itchy spots because it would numb the area. It did! The spots stopped itching and the fingertips I used to rub it on were numb. It  was crazy. The doc explained that if the rash doesn’t go away anytime soon that I should call him back. He can get me into a dermatologist within 1-2 weeks. I’ve bee calling around and I couldn’t get an appointment for at least 2 months.

Long story short, I’m glad that I don’t have ringworm and that I hope I have an accurate diagnosis this time.  The Hydroxyzine pills are crazy. They make you really calm and sleepy and it gave me vivid dreams. I’m still sleepy now and I took it last night so I don’t know if that’s a good thing, but I wasn’t itching and that’s worth the side effects.

Sex, Lies, and Videotape

The basis of my whole blog is to let people in on the craziness that is my life. I have periods of calm where nothing really goes on but I know that in due time, drama will rear its ugly head. This post is about something that took me completely by surprise recently:

About 3 years ago, I separated from my husband and moved out and into my own place.  Hindsight being 20/20, I now realize that that was the beginning of my downfall. Sometimes it takes losing it all to appreciate what you have. Anyway, I digress.  I had bought new furniture, accessories, etc. to fill a new household. In the end, I lost my good credit (due to filing bankruptcy), got a stalker, lost my pride, lost faith in mankind, and gained a circulating videotape. Yes, you read it right. A videotape.

I had been hearing rumors for a while that one of my trysts was caught on tape. I didn’t read too much into it because rumors are just that. Rumors. I did keep my ears open because I am one to believe that where there is smoke there is fire. I had met a couple and we became friends. I ended up involving myself with the couple (wrong move) and I guess they had a hidden camera in their room because the rumor is that both were in the video. I can pinpoint the night but definitely don’t remember seeing a camera nor consenting to be on one. Now here is where the story gets worse: I talked to my husband about a month ago and told him I kept hearing rumors about a tape and he said they weren’t rumors. Someone he knew saw it and said it was clearly me. Not to mention, the couple is now printing stills of the video and passing the pictures around. Stills that he has personally seen. Everything makes sense now. I was getting a lot of Myspace friend requests at one time and didn’t think anything about it. The story gets worse….

I now hear conflicting stories. The guy who saw it told my husband that I was clearly out of it at one point. They have been known to drug people by sticking stuff in their drinks. Now that I think of it, I did get really drunk after 1 drink….. The messed up thing is I only remember the night up to a certain part. I woke up in the bed by myself. Apparently on the video the guy saw, multiple guys came in the room. I don’t remember any of this so I am still doubting it was me but the guy said it clearly was. I have a male friend who saw the tape and said it looked like a basement. We had stopped talking for a while due to his financial ineptitude but that’s another story. I saw him a few months ago and he apologized and this is how I found out he saw it. Now I’m thinking they carried me down to a basement and the guys were already there the whole time; however, the male friend said he didn’t see the part with other guys coming through.

So I am now on a quest to get the tape. I have a feeling it’s online somewhere but of course I have no idea what site it would be on. There are so many amateur porn sites it would be next to impossible to find it anytime soon. Also, in the state I live in, it is illegal to videotape someone without their consent. Also, there may be possible rape charges if I was clearly not conscious. The only streak of light for me right now is the fact that my male friend knows someone who has a copy of the tape. The issue is, the person is hesitant in releasing it to him – constantly asking him what he is going to do with it. My thoughts on this are 1.) He’s on the tape or 2:) doesn’t want to get the couple and/or others in trouble. I pray that he releases it so I can proceed to let the court system handle it. It sucks waiting. I already have a lawyer ready to help.

If I get the tape, it will be city news because a lot of people know them. I expect backlash and will take it because I was wrong but so were they. It would really suck if it reached the news stations…. Stay tuned. I will keep everyone updated on what happens. Let the search begin….

Stomach Issues

Ever think you are having a good day and it ends up bad anyway?  Well that happened to me yesterday. My birthday ended up pretty good. After I stopped being lazy and decided to do something, my day was actually enjoyable. I hung out and then went out to go see The Final Destination at the end of the day in 3D. Although I liked the 3D part, the movie itself sucked (especially the ending). I woke up the next morning feeling like crap. Stomach bubbling, the whole nine yards. I think I got a stomach virus somehow.  Damn PF Chang’s…. I hope this is not a preview of how things will be…..

Ringworm

I’ve had a spot on my lower back for over a month that looked a little dry but it itched. I thought it might have been a ringworm but I wasn’t sure. I’ve been putting antifungal on it but it still hasn’t gone away. I finally decided to go to the Dr. yesterday and she had no clue either. WTH?! Isn’t that what I’m paying you for? She said it looked like a ringworm and told me to try a different antifungal cream. I think she may have been right because now I’m seeing other spots popping up. Effing great…..  I hope this cream works this time.

Traffic Ticket Avoided

I’ve been driving around for the past 6 years or so with no front plate. My friend always got pulled over and ticketed for no plate and kept saying I was lucky. I believe I was lucky but luck always runs out…. Going home for lunch I passed a State Trooper in the shopping complex by my house. I turned into my subdivision and saw him following me and instantly knew there was going to be a problem. Lights come on so I pull over and he asks me the standard question, ” Do you know why I pulled you over?” I honestly didn’t. He then proceeded to tell me I had no front tag. Luck was on my side because he only gave me a warning. Happy Birthday to me I guess….

Corneal Abrasion

The hits keep on coming but I guess I can say it was my fault. My left eye had been red for about 3 or 4 days and I ignored it. Being a contact wearer, red eyes are just normal sometimes. Well I guess I really was having a problem because I woke up today and could barely see! My left eye kept tearing up and I couldn’t bare to look at any type of light source. Here I am driving with my glasses on and a pair of huge sunglasses on top of them, squinting through to make sure I’m in my lane. It was horrible and probably a funny site to see. Not to mention, the pain was downright terrible. I decided to go to work in my eyeglasses that I only wear in the evenings and never in public. I have had these wretched things since 2003 because I was too lazy to buy any new ones because I thought I would never have to  go outside in them. Now mind you, while they are 6 years old, they also have chipped glass coating on the lenses as well as a 1/4 inch crack in the bottom right lens. Yes, I am going to work like this….. Looking like a busted hobo with glassy eyes because my ointment makes me look like I’ve been smoking something. Good times….  I have one more day left to wear these *crossing fingers* so I hope all goes well. LASIK is definitely higher on my priority sheet now.